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We're fucking awesome.

[He beams~]

You don't know how happy I am t'see you love yourself.

I had a lot of really, really good help.

It still doesn't feel... great, all the time, but—I don't know exactly when I stopped just feeling this gutpunch of self-loathing all the time, and sometimes I don't know if I deserve it, but—

Everything feels so much more... manageable.

Less you have to fight yourself, the more you can fight everyone else.

You're basically an unstoppable force now.

Pfft. I’d argue that I’m baseline functional as a human being now, which I think is a little bit below “unstoppable,” but there’s goals, I guess.

And look at you, with a life so full of family that family just can’t stop happening to you. Setting a good example for them.

Well, according to some definitely unbiased people, I think you were already powerful before.

I hope it's a good example, anyway. Did I tell you that Raven texted me in the middle of the night, asking me to forget the whole confession thing?? I think he was gonna ask Jason to wipe it from his head.

...........you did not. Oh no.

You talked him out of that at least, right?

Yeah, god.

Then he demanded I get outta bed and give him a hug.

..........that’s cute, kind of.

If it wasn’t so emotionally fraught.

Hhhhe doesn't know I was in bed with Jason while he was texting me........

...oh whoops that’s awkward.

He gets that he’s allowed in so long as he doesn’t get caught, by the way, right?

I snuck him in, but... I don't think he expected I would.

[There's a twinge of sadness in his voice]

It kinda sucks though. I know he likes Nemesis. And he even helped Gold with that Live-- on his own, too. Gave Gold some of his confidence back.

He just doesn't trust Baritones. Apparently Hime walked him off the 11th floor balcony on his first day.

.........gods, of course. She does get... territorial, huh. Just she’s not BARiTONES anymore, anyway.

That Live was cute, though. Gold needs more rude friends.

Sometimes I wonder if she knows she's not Baritones anymore. Can't be easy to just forget.

...and Jason is pretty much the king of rudeness.

[A fond quirk of his lip, a bashful glance away.]

[ teasing ] Could it be that you liiiiiiiiike him?

[B-BLUSH,]

Maybe he even likes me back sometimes...!?

It's cute.

I can never entirely tell if he likes me, but you, it's very obvious, I think.

I... can't imagine why he wouldn't like you?

[tbf nero has a hard time imagining anyone not liking shrike,]

I don't think he dislikes me, exactly, we talk sometimes and he tells me to be less nice, just—

[ she waves her free hand. ]

He seems like he could be doing better. Still.

[More seriously, his tone drops]

I... don't think he really recovered. Not really. Just told himself it's been long enough, so he should be over it by now - but he doesn't sleep at night, I'm pretty sure. Not if he's alone.

...it makes sense. I mean, I... know, how that is.

You don't really get over that sort of thing.

So, that's why...

That's... definitely something you understand about him much better than me.

He probably just thinks it makes him weak. And he-- hates letting anyone see that.

[and that's just. so hard...]

I guess I had an advantage in that I just... didn't have a good view of myself to start with as far as personal wherewithal, oddly, so it was a bit like... well, nothing to lose, there.

But it helped to have people in my corner, so... it's good. That he has you. It took a while for me to... even get to here, after all.

...does Silk know? They're still together, right?

Yeah, but he's never talked about her much. I dunno how much they share. I know she's been through a lot too - lost her little brother in front of her eyes and everything. Still...

I think me and Talon probably know the most. That's why we went nuts when Jason disappeared. And he wouldn't wanna burden a kid with his problems, so.

Of course here I am having said I'd like a day to unwind and here I am worrying about other people, but...

...I know how important he is to you. So—while I... like having you all to myself now and again, I'm glad it helps him to have you. If there's anything I can do, er... let me know, too, I guess.

We can't help it. Gossip just turns into wanting to take care of people.

[Hums in contemplation,]

Being able t'sleep more than... well, never might help him stay stable. He doesn't get nightmares if I'm there.

But I can't stay at BAD END all the time, obviously. And I'd miss you.

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