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I love you, too. ‘Til the end of time. Always.
[ she presses a soft kiss to his cheek. ]
...you’ll never have to doubt it.
[ she presses a soft kiss to his cheek. ]
...you’ll never have to doubt it.
I'd never. I just...
[It's harder for the self-loathing to find purchase in the afterglow, with the two of them melted against each other. This felt right. He was allowed.]
Just... hold me?
[It's harder for the self-loathing to find purchase in the afterglow, with the two of them melted against each other. This felt right. He was allowed.]
Just... hold me?
Nothing else I'd rather do.
[ everything feels right in the world again, at least for the moment. maybe this can be allowed. maybe it'll all be okay.
after a second, her feint peels off of her and just... goes to put something heavy in front of the door. ]
[ everything feels right in the world again, at least for the moment. maybe this can be allowed. maybe it'll all be okay.
after a second, her feint peels off of her and just... goes to put something heavy in front of the door. ]
[That's a good call because if anyone walked in on them, both of them would have to immediately die, forever]
I can't believe we actually did that...
[he's both amazed and embarrassed]
I can't believe we actually did that...
[he's both amazed and embarrassed]
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[ she laughs against his skin, quietly, and curls more against him— ]
Ye gods, me neither, but—
Well, I'd do it again, though.
Ye gods, me neither, but—
Well, I'd do it again, though.
...Yeah.
[With a faint, tired but relieved smile,]
Um. Do you... feel better?
[With a faint, tired but relieved smile,]
Um. Do you... feel better?
S'long as you're here.
[He sighs quietly]
...I don't know how you live with self-loathing.
[He sighs quietly]
...I don't know how you live with self-loathing.
[ she thunks her forehead lightly into his. ]
Mm... I didn't figure it out until not too long ago.
But at least for me... it's had a lot to do with having people I trust to hold onto, to keep me honest with myself. To keep me from giving up.
Mm... I didn't figure it out until not too long ago.
But at least for me... it's had a lot to do with having people I trust to hold onto, to keep me honest with myself. To keep me from giving up.
I got motivation to spare, but...
[He goes quiet for a moment, closing his eyes]
Guess this must be how my dads feel. To hate being vulnerable so bad, you'd rather ruin yourself than let anyone see you feel weak. Even if all you want is t'be comforted...
[He goes quiet for a moment, closing his eyes]
Guess this must be how my dads feel. To hate being vulnerable so bad, you'd rather ruin yourself than let anyone see you feel weak. Even if all you want is t'be comforted...
Makes a certain sort of sense, I guess. When I get into my head it’s needing comfort as... something undeserved, instead, but—I get it.
But—I guess that’s what having each other’s for, right?
But—I guess that’s what having each other’s for, right?
That's how demons are, I think. If you're weak you... you can't hold onto anything precious. You don't deserve it. And it's only gonna cause you pain when you lose it.
Even if I know I won't lose you, I'm-- still a demon. I know it's not better t'be alone, but... it still scares me. Feeling helpless.
Even if I know I won't lose you, I'm-- still a demon. I know it's not better t'be alone, but... it still scares me. Feeling helpless.
[ she runs her fingers through his hair, lightly, and idly starts plaiting a small section. ]
I think, probably—it's a common fear, isn't it? At least... here, where we have so precious few options in the first place.
Even I still feel like—there should have been something else I could have done. To—take more care, to not lose my mind again...
I think, probably—it's a common fear, isn't it? At least... here, where we have so precious few options in the first place.
Even I still feel like—there should have been something else I could have done. To—take more care, to not lose my mind again...
I guess it is. It's not-- new, or unique or anything. It's not something I... feel in most games. I've never felt so much of it.
...At least I did better than going nuts in my first round. Really turned the table on how much I put you through, the first time...
...At least I did better than going nuts in my first round. Really turned the table on how much I put you through, the first time...
Ah... sorry.
I was hoping I’d do better, too, but—I feel like I put you through a lot.
I was hoping I’d do better, too, but—I feel like I put you through a lot.
It's okay.
[He nuzzles into her with a heavy sigh, pausing before mumbling,]
I don't think I'm in a hurry t'learn how to swim now.
[He nuzzles into her with a heavy sigh, pausing before mumbling,]
I don't think I'm in a hurry t'learn how to swim now.
...I guess we can keep Gold company on the shore for a bit.
Probably Hime too. If she'd get anywhere near the beach t'start with.
[ she rolls gently sideways, and tugs him with her. ]
That's enough of avante to have a whole second party somewhere, if the occasion calls for swimming. We can mutiny.
That's enough of avante to have a whole second party somewhere, if the occasion calls for swimming. We can mutiny.
[He's pulled with, curling around her and tangling his legs with hers. His face tightens with a hint of worry again, and he ducks his head]
If they're not all mad at me anyway...
If they're not all mad at me anyway...
[ gently patting his head, ]
Why on earth would they be mad at you, love?
Why on earth would they be mad at you, love?
[Mutters,]
'Cause I snapped and attacked Heart Soldier after the game............
'Cause I snapped and attacked Heart Soldier after the game............
Ohhhhhh dear.
Well—I mean, it's sort of... everyone knows feelings run high after that sort of thing, I'm sure once things have cooled own it'll be fine...
...what happened, anyway?
Well—I mean, it's sort of... everyone knows feelings run high after that sort of thing, I'm sure once things have cooled own it'll be fine...
...what happened, anyway?
I just... needed something to hit. Told Adora to fight me, and she did.
That wasn't okay t'them. Tried to get in the way. And it just... took me back to everything that went wrong when I tried t'save my dad from the sensitIV with a chainsaw.
That wasn't okay t'them. Tried to get in the way. And it just... took me back to everything that went wrong when I tried t'save my dad from the sensitIV with a chainsaw.
No, that—that makes sense. Both how you reacted and how they reacted...
...no one got hurt, did they? If they didn't, then—I'm sure no one will really hold it against you.
[ with an undertone of—"well, they'd better not," but not too sharp. ]
And it makes sense that... all of that weighs on you, still.
...no one got hurt, did they? If they didn't, then—I'm sure no one will really hold it against you.
[ with an undertone of—"well, they'd better not," but not too sharp. ]
And it makes sense that... all of that weighs on you, still.
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