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Mmn. That sucks.

[Not being able to do something about it, and just having to wait it out... sucksss.]

[mind_blown]

You're telling me.

I don't want to go back to Bad End, because everyone's apologizing over that bullshit game.

[they got the worst one? he's fine.]

Can't exactly stay on the ground, either.

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You never hang out at WILD CITY?

[Genuine curiosity. He knows Gold stays over sometimes.]

[mind_blown]

Reasonably sure their "mom" hates me.

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Oh?

[mind_blown]

Yeah.

She doesn't like the bullshit I've pulled.

[he shrugs]

Fair enough.

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[Hm. Griffin scratches his cheek.]

Talon would still vouch for you bein' there though.

[mind_blown]

He would.

[that doesn't mean he should though]

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[Griffin falls quiet, mostly since... this wasn't any of his business, really. So, he tangents.]

Hm. He really does know his anatomy...

[mind_blown]

He's the smarter one between the two of us.

Probably because his mom drilled it in.

[now who's changing subjects.]

His real mom.

[he closes his eyes.]

... Did you really mean that? That you were just making nice with him for me?

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[Griffin sighs and pulls a leg up to fold his arms over the knee.]

I've told Talon this, but I really can't care about people I don't know. I just don't feel anything. Maybe it's a demon thing. Maybe I'm just not a good person.

I care about Talon because you care about Talon.

[He shrugs,] And I guess he's a kid. Though I forget that with how he acts, sometimes.

[mind_blown]

[he considers that for a moment. there's a lot in that answer, but--]

I guess I don't care about your reasoning. Just the results.

[if his brother doesn't get hurt, that's fine.]

Guess we're not that different.

[this is a lie. but it's one that he wants to believe.]

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[He raises a brow at that.]

I don't think anyone who actually runs around as a 'hero' doesn't care.

[mind_blown]

I'm not a hero. Not the way Talon talks about it.

I can tell you that much for certain. Even in my memories, I don't consider myself one.

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You are compared t'me.

You don't even get paid. What kinda bullshit is that?

[mind_blown]

Adopted dad's loaded.

[he pauses]

And I don't remember how I get my money, so you might wanna hold judgment on that one. Could be Talon's mom is paying me, too. Who knows.

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Why can't my adopted family be loaded...

[LIFE IS UNFAIR]

Still kinda seems like you're doin' it because it's 'the right thing to do' or somethin'. Someone with your skillset could be doing a lotta other things.

[mind_blown]

My family hates me.

[he pauses for a second here, wincing just a bit, but pushes through it before Griffin can get a chance to interrupt]

That much is clear in about 90% of my memories. Whatever happened, I wouldn't assume my motivations and what I'm doing is the same as them.

[this hurts. he hates that it hurts, but he's just going to give a bitter smile into middle distance, not looking at Griffin.]

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Your family runs around in tights and capes, so. Their sense of judgment seems pretty wack.

...You wouldn't be upset about seeing'em die if you didn't care, though. Maybe that's more than they deserve from you.

[mind_blown]

Wasn't upset about seeing them die.

I was worried about what it'd do to Talon.

But their judgment's probably about as whack as my own. That much is true.

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[Muted,]

You were upset.

I didn't realize at the time just how much. But you were.

[mind_blown]

Shocked.

Not upset.

[what's the difference? probably very little. he pauses...]

Anyway, before we go off the deep end here, point being... I don't care about your reasoning. Just your actions.

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[He snorts, but with a touch of amusement. Sure, tough guy. But, it's not like he disagrees.]

You're not wrong. Actions are all we're judged by. They're the only real impact that matters.

[mind_blown]

Yeah.

But people want to hear the thought process.

[and he slowly, slowly pushes himself up-- the pain hasn't gone away. at all. but maybe moving will help, even if he feels like he's going to collapse.]

Maybe the first time, you can excuse it.

But at some point, a fuckup proves they're going to stay a fuckup. You can't give second chances to everyone.

[he hisses through his teeth, unable to help favoring one side.]

You wanna make right with Talon? You're not wrong. Despite it all, I care about that brat. Guess the joke's on me, that he was right. I want this now.

[he goes quiet, thoughtful.]

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['Fuckup' makes Griffin look away, self-conscious - even if he was aware that Jason was referring to himself, as well. But when he hears the other man hiss, his head jerks back and he tries to help shoulder Jason's weight, concerned.]

Don't push yourself yet--!

[...ah, wait. Huh? He blinks, feeling like he missed a part of the conversation somewhere.]

Want what...?