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Hmn.

[Griffin isn't nearly as self-congratulatory as he usually is when he pulls off a sweet stunt. If anything he just seems kinda tired of himself.]

You look pale as a ghost.

[mind_blown]

[He notices that, and rather than address the comment to him]

Trying to dial it back for Talon?

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[He can't hide the flicker of frustration on his face]

I'm supposed t'be learning restraint.

[But it is obviously not coming naturally. At all.]

[mind_blown]

I doubt he cares if you learn restraint for running on swords.

[just his honest opinion, as he pushes himself up gingerly.]

Seems like the type of thing to double up on, if you're that frustrated.

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[Griffin watches how Jason holds his weight as he stands, looking for how much the leg was still hurting him.]

...Nothing I do is right. I don't have a single instinct that matches what he thinks is already common sense.

[mind_blown]

[he's definitely favoring one side]

He acts like that's common sense he didn't have to learn. Or that we don't get bad instincts.

I told you, I was gonna kill that bastard myself.

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But you know restraint already.

[Not using it was Jason's choice, and not just... the only way he knew how to live.]

[mind_blown]

... Then you learn that where it matters.

[and he shifts his weight, testing the injured leg, and then crouches down, like he's verifying range of movement.

seems fine, now. and color's starting to return to his face.]

But what do I know. I'm just some asshole who got denied a chance at revenge.

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Are you still on about that...

[Said listlessly. Griffin sighs and glances away now that Jason seemed more alive. Maybe he'll just pace along the roof's edge, but he looks like he has something bothering him.]

[mind_blown]

... What's wrong?

[and then he straightens, before heading closer to the edge.]

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You're just all right letting me think whatever I want about you even when I'm wrong, huh.

[He's not accusatory - more muted than anything.]

[mind_blown]

... I don't want to argue with you. It didn't seem worth it to correct you.

[glossing over that he tried to do so]

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[He snorts, faintly amused]

Shrike did the same thing once, y'know?

[mind_blown]

[he considers]

No.

But it wouldn't entirely surprise me.

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I lost my memory of her in Malik's game. Thought she was a new member that just turned up.

She never corrected me. If we hadn't won, she probably would've just played along like she'd never meant anything to me.

And thought it was better, 'cause no one had to be upset that way.

[mind_blown]

You believed I'd do it.

[he shrugs.]

Somehow it cleared up.

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[He's so tired,,]

So it's my fault for not having enough faith in you?...

[mind_blown]

No.

[that was quick]

It's my fault. I know what kind of persona I project, and that comes with good and bad. It's not worth it to push back on what's wrong, or I'd waste time and energy that no one would believe.

[he pauses, like he's about to say something more, but he exhales, a frustrated sigh.]

I just don't think it's worth fighting over what's accurate or what's not, when it comes to me.

[why it took him literal weeks to ask Joker for a different name.

why he blows past any discomfort.]

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[All this just makes Griffin's brows furrow more and more as he listens to Jason talk.]

It's not like I wanna waste my time convincing people who don't give a shit, either. But if it's someone who actually cares...

[Quietly,] I'd wanna fight for that.

[mind_blown]

...

Guess it's one of those habits I've got that I don't remember why.

Sorry.

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[His face softens, and he shoves his hands in his pockets as he stares down at the sidewalks below.]

...It's fine.

It cleared up anyway, right?

[mind_blown]

[he doesn't believe that, now, coming from Griffin. and he's quiet, leaning over the edge of the roof, considering his next move. thinking of how to respond.]

... You don't have to put up with this.

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[He glances at Jason out of the corner of his eye]

What kinda hypocrite would I be for giving up on someone for their bad instincts?...

[mind_blown]

[he glances at him]

I'm serious. Make things up with Talon, whatever. He needs to know adults give a shit about him.

But you've never needed to put up with my bullshit.

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...You dense motherfucker.

I'm making nice is 'cause I wanna keep putting up with your bullshit.