Yeah, um- I'm trying to do better about this. I mean, the fact that I'm telling you this means, ah, I am making progress about, uh, all of this, even if this must be really awkward. I feel like, you had a right to know, even if it must seem like I'm just forcing all of these strange feelings onto you. I, ah, I really hate myself sometimes, but I can't just sit around and let that stop me from noticing the world around me, and actually taking part in it.

But, um, you're right. It hurts so much to lose people, and even more to have never had the opportunities to have done the things you want. To tell people how you feel. And, ah, love is not just for the past and the future, but for the present.